The 12 Gifts I Want To Receive

It's Christmas time again. I forgot if I wrote something for Christmas from the previous years. Anyway, and by the way, I will write Limits by Christmas break. I promise that.

Now onto the list.

Be forewarned: the gifts I am mentioning are just plain baffled wishes and you may not grant them. They should be taken seriously, though.

12. A day alone with Rondo
~ Yes, call that a date. Maybe you were already sick of my mentioning to Rondo on almost every other blog entry of mine. Forgive me on that. I imagine him and I on a beach. We were sitting beside each other on the sand. Our hand holding each other and I lean to his shoulders. Yuck. Cheezy. If he knows that he is Rondo, he can despise me for as long as he likes. I don't care. I just wanted to express what I feel here on my own little private space.

11. A day alone with Ursula
~ New character alert! Ursula is a classmate of mine. Well, I know her for a long time, but it's just now that I have a liking on her. I guess my dormant male side that has hibernated for so long has finally awakened again. I think she and Rondo are friends. So I'm really torn. You see, recently, when I sit beside her, I get that tingling feeling. And yes, I wanted to have a dinner with her, on a high-end restaurant on top of a building by evening.

10. More perseverance
~ I'm trying to minimize my procrastination period. Like today, I should be reviewing, but what are the odds that I'll stop by this computer? LOL! Seriously, this is self-explanatory.

9. Lasting friendships
~ I'm on the verge of losing three "friends" of mine. I really have a tendency to have this "emotional dependence". I wanted attention. I am selfish, I know that. I would like to say sorry to the three of them (although I said that already to the 2, I wold like to say it again). The thing that I hate on making friends online is that I take things VERY seriously. Just connect between the dots.

8. One-way trip to Boracay
~ With lots of money, of course. But I think not bringing money will be good as well. I wanted to devoid myself of... things I wanted me to be devoid of. I wanted to be alone. I just wanted to watch the beach from sunrise to the next sunrise, thinking about EVERYTHING that's happening to me. I wanted to think more of the present rather that the future.

7. Appreciation
~ This one is tough. I wanted to be contented on what I have, but I still can't. For instance, I wanted more friends so that I won't feel neglected. Get me?

6. More stuff to get me busy
~ Comes with number 9. You know how I badly want to talk to people. It just hurts when I think they don't even know me or care for me. I wanted to be busy so that I won't look for my friends and "depend" on them again. So far so good?

5. More patience
~ I wanted to teach. But I always nag at my siblings. Well, I don't nag when I teach other people. And, oh, I need to be good at explaining! Yeah, and patience and perseverance (in conjunction with number 10) so that I can write more stories.

4. Honest people
~ Or maybe, the ability to read thoughts and feelings. I want to know who of all the people who know me like me (my personality to be specific). I can't deter if some people really want to get to know me better or if they just befriended me so that they can have LOTS of friends. I hate this feeling. I guess people would just talk to me not because they wanted to talk to me, but just for me t shut up.

3. Good grades
~ You know already what my goal is before I graduate. I have a lot to show, especially to Janus. I don't know why but when I get rough, I get competitive. And besides, I wanted that for impressions. I'm a very bad guy, I'm sorry. I just wanted your attention.

2. Robi tied in red and black ribbons
~ In his HS uniform and no undergarments. Forgive me. That's my ultimate fantasy so far. I know this one is very impossible to grant. But if I have dreamt of this, that may be enough.

1. To graduate in UP with flying colors.
~ It depends on what color[s]. But what I mean is, I hope that I can graduate and have a job that I wanted. Then I'll take a master's and doctoral degree.

==

As a replacement for Daniel Jupiter: "Epsiode" 5. LOL! Episode, men, not Epsiode!