Yung Panaginip Ko Kagabi

Nasa Math Bldg. daw ako. There's nothing wrong except the canteen. Ibang look. Mas malaki. Pero gloomy and dark. Nasa harapan na ako ng counter para um-order ng ramen (WTF, may ramen sa MB?!). Nasa harapan ang isang taong nung nakita ko ay nagulat ako. Paano ba naman, new hairstyle. Mas nagulat ako dahil ningitian niya ako. Sinabihan niya ako ng "Hi!" Akong ulol naman, yumuko at ngumisi. Nangiti. Kinilig baga.

Yun lang ang naalala ko sa panaginip ko... T_T

Nawala na yung prophetic dreams ko, kaya di ko malalaman kung mangyayari itong scene na to. Pero pag nakita ko nga siya na new hairstyle,
liligawan ko siya
aantayin kong ligawan niya ako
aayain ko siyang mag-date
hahawakan ko ang kamay niya
NEVERMIND!!!

Waaaah...

Mababaliw na ako. T_T

Survivor: Gabon: The Likeables, The Un-Likeables, and The Bitches

I think it was so stupid of me that Survivor has been around since 2000, yet I just started to become a fan recently. I love watching Survivor not just because it's a reality show and there are physical and mental challenges but also it's fun to watch, then observe, how different people act in different situations.



Previously on Survivor: Gabon...

It All Depends on the Pin-Up Girl:
Fang lost again in the reward and immunity challenge (although it's individual immunity this time). Marcus (the I'll-flash-my-penis-for-a-few-seconds doctor) won the immunity and, as an added twist, he also hailed Sugar (the pin-up girl) another immunity. Pressure rises up on Fang on who's to go next. Crystal's (the Olympic gold medalist-slash-whiner) name come's to mind until Kenny (the video game master and the I-beat-Physics-teacher-in-a-Math-question Asian) tricked Sugar that Ace (the "puppeteer") will vote-off her next. The result: Ace was voted-off: 3-2 against Crystal. Another surprise is the double elimination: Kota is to vote-off a member as well, and Dan (the hungry) was voted off at 5-2 against Susie (the few-liner).



My comments/rants about the contestants:

The Likeables:
1. Ken - the professional video gamer. He's Asian (Vietnamese to be exact). Don't underestimate his slim physique: he's doing quite well in challenges. Plus, he's kinda socially neutral but I think he can easily manipulate others because he talks well
2. Kelly - the student. This blonde [I think that I have weakness for blondes] spitfire is one of those two who stood against Ace prior to the tribe-shuffling. Sadly, she's just an all-face-no-effort lady.
3. Paloma - the waitress. A Hispanic who also stood against Ace. But sadly, since Ace is a manipulator, she was voted off. Poor girl, she's small yet tough.
4. Charlie - the lawyer. He's gay and he likes Marcus. Plus, he's a member of that so-called "onion alliance". Fear him: he's strong yet socially-likeable.
5. Sugar - the pin-up model. She may be blonde and she may look weak, but she's showing strong streaks (one is by obtaining the Hidden Immunity Idol). Can easily be manipulated, though.

The Unlikeables:
1. Ace -  the photographer. Yeah, you're strong, but I hate your head full of hot air. You're nothing but body, no-brainer.
2. Crystal - the Olympic gold medalist. One of the fastest females in the world and at the same time, one of the strongest to whine in the game. You win, you boast. You lose, you cry.
3. GC - the maintenance man. Another whiner. The worse is: he's a quitter. You join Survivor not to quit the game but to win. Seriously, Sugar is better than you.

The Bitch and The Bastard:
1. Corrine - the pharmaceutical salesperson. The number one bitch of the game: the ruthless queen. Get into her way and I'll see you be burned later. Be forwarned: she is another member of the onion alliance.
2. Randy - the wedding videographer. He fonds of attaching himself to stronger alliances and can get ways to get himself into that alliance. He likes to see the other tribe lose more that to see his tribe win. Now, he is another member of the onion alliance.



For more info, visit Survivor on CBS.

The 14 Elementals

Lol, you might be misguided by the title again. I was talking way back then about my idea since I was Second Year High School. Well, I'm posting here my concept of the characters. Please if you plan to imitate/lift/copy someone (but I bet you won't, my ideas are crappy), at least ask my permission AND credit me [when I say AND, I mean "AND": Math Major's way]. So I can know where my idea has gone to and be happy that someone appreciates my work.

Flerida

Name: Flerida Amor (18, F)
1st Ability: Super Strength
Element: Fire
Weapon: Daggers
Description: Third Year, athletic, friendly, tactical

Spoilers:
2nd Ability: Transposition
Sacred Weapon: Sword
Guardian: Phoenix

Plot: friend of Aero and Hannah, wants to take up Speech Communications, once a contestant to different sports competitions but will quit after her discovery of her powers, will be revealed that she is an orphan and is struggling to make a living for her and her siblings, will also be revealed that she has lesbian tendencies

Aero/Roll

Name: Aerol Celeste (18, M)
1st Ability: Invisibility
Element: Air
Weapon: Bow
Description: Third Year, Writer, top student, snob but talkative, open-minded, spendthrift

Spoilers:
2nd Ability: Sense Extension
Sacred Weapon: Fans
Guardian: Dragon

Plot: Flerida and Hannah are her first friends, transferred when he was Second Year, wants to take up Mathematics, in love with Nami but will be attracted to Ice as well, will be revealed to have an identity crisis due to a molestation done to him when he was a kid, will also become an heir to the Celeste clan

Nami

Name: Iwamoto Nanami [Other Name: Naomi] (17, F)
1st Ability: Phasing/Intangibility
Element: Water
Weapon: Umbrella
Description: Japanese descent, Second Year, singer, rich, loves kids, shy

Spoilers:
2nd Ability: Voice Manipulation
Sacred Weapon: Chain
Guardian: Turtle

Plot: a Japanese living in the Philippines, has a wonderful voice and can play different instruments such as piano and violin, will fall in love with Aero and Ice, will be revealed that she had a childhood boyfriend who looks and acts exactly like Aero

Leo

Name: John Leonard Dwight (17, M)
1st Ability: Super Endurance (Physical)
Element: Earth
Weapon: Hammer
Description: American descent, Second Year (transferree), craftsman, artist

Spoilers:
2nd Ability: Extended Super Endurance/Immunity
Sacred Weapon: Gloves
Guardian: Tiger

Plot: not much yet, but he will become best friends with Vulcan and Mike

Hannah

Name: Hannah Primero (18, F)
1st Ability: Super Speed
Element: Electricity
Weapon: Sais
Description: Third Year, athletic, talkative, friendly, witty, naughty

Spoilers:
2nd Ability: Magnetism
Sacred Weapon: Spear
Guardian: Eagle

Plot: friends with Flerida and Aero, wants to take Theater Arts, also a contestant to different sports competitions but will quit after her discovery of her powers

Ice

Name: Lee Kai Shou [Other Name: Mark Isaiah] (18, M)
1st Ability: Weather Manipulation
Element: Ice
Weapon: Nunchaku
Description: Chinese descent, Third Year (transferree), dancer, rich, loves puzzles

Spoilers:
2nd Ability: Temperature Alternation
Sacred Weapon: Shield
Guardian: [Polar] Bear

Plot: the heir to the Lee clan, campus heartthrob, very popular even he's a transferree but he will befriend the clique of Aero, will become in love with Nami, will be revealed that he loves Aero as well because he reminds him of his deceased [one and only] girlfriend

Flor

Name: Flordecielo la Torre (16, F)
1st Ability: Summoning
Element: Nature
Weapon: Whip
Description: Spanish descent, First Year, environmentalist, loves animals and gardens

Spoilers:
2nd Ability: Bestial/Floral Transformation
Sacred Weapon: Sticks
Guardian: Falcon

Plot: nothing much for now except she will be befriended by Nami, she owns a pet shop (note: NOT pet store)

Vulcan

Name: Sir Vulcan Eisenhower (17, M)
1st Ability: Physical Transformation
Element: Lava
Weapon: Axe
Description: British descent, Second Year (transferree), craftsman, techie

Spoilers:
2nd Ability: Radioactivity
Sacred Weapon: Guns
Guardian: Salamander

Plot: will be friends with Leo and Mike, moved to the Philippines because of family problems

Lee

Name: Park Lee Chan [Other Name: Cattleya] (16, F)
1st Ability: Healing
Element: Light
Weapon: Lasso
Description: Korean descent, First Year, rational, submissive, naïve, sensitive

Spoilers:
2nd Ability: Probability Alternation
Sacred Weapon: Hoop
Guardian: Dove

Plot: a transferree who will have a crush on Aero and Nathan, will be revealed that Shun is his brother, will fall in love with Shun

Shun

Name: Kang Ye Shun [Other Name: Anderson] (16, M)
1st Ability: Necromancy
Element: Shadow
Weapon: Cards
Description: Korean descent, First Year, stereotyper, playboy, ill-conceited

Spoilers:
2nd Ability: Oversoul/Body Possession
Sacred Weapon: Wand
Guardian: Crow

Plot: popular as well but not as popular as Aero, believes that girls each have their "expiration date", will be the heir of the Kang clan, will be revealed that he is just adopted and Leah is his sister

Mike

Name: Christian Michael Arcangel (17, M)
1st Ability: Animation
Element: Metal
Weapon: Knuckles
Description: Second Year, craftsman, poor, resourceful

Spoilers:
2nd Ability: Technopathy
Sacred Weapon: Claws
Guardian: Dog

Plot: not much yet except he's friends with Leo and Vulcan, a working student who helps her mother earn money, will be revealed that his father left them but died afterwards, will also have a crush on Myra

Myra

Name: Myra Elisa Paige (17, F)
1st Ability: Vision
Element: Mirror
Weapon: Projective Blade
Description: Fil-Am, Second Year, eavesdropper, vain

Spoilers:
2nd Ability: Persuasion
Sacred Weapon: Hand (or Vanity) Mirror
Guardian: Cat

Plot: a socialite and a stalker, will blackmail Aero using his identity crisis, will be revealed to have an obsession on Aero and Nathan, will be revealed as a "professional" stalker

Nathan

Name: Jonathan Thadeus (18, M)
1st Ability: Prediciton
Element: Psyche/Mind
Weapon: Eyeglasses
Description: Third Year, top student, rational

Spoilers:
2nd Ability: Human Control/Puppetry
Sacred Weapon: Book
Guardian: Owl

Plot: expected to receive the First Honors by their graduation, wants to take up Economics or Business Administration, will be revealed that he likes Aero when he read Aero's mind that he has a crush on him

Mia

Name: Mia Nicole Saavedra (19, F)
1st Ability: Cloning
Element: Alchemy
Weapon: Ring
Description: Alumna, taking up BS Chemistry, friendly, rational, enthusiastic, role model

Spoilers:
2nd Ability: Power (or Element) Manipulation
Sacred Weapon: Bracelet
Guardian: Starfish

Plot: just graduated from their school (Boniface Academy) and taking up Chemistry but can't decide at first if it will be Pennman University or University of Boardwood, is friends with Flerida, Hannah, and Nathan, and, later, with everyone, mother-figure and likes to cook


When did it all began: Conjugation of all those in the Solar System
When: Graduation Bash (tradition of the Boniface Academy)
Attendees: Recent Graduates, Other Students of the Academy, Faculty, Transferres and New Enrollees

Heroes 3x09

Start:

Nov 18, '08

Heroes
Season 3: Villains
Episode 9: It's Coming

Heroes 3x08

Start:

Nov 11, '08

Heroes
Season 3: Villains
Episode 8: Villains

Apologies

Apologies. My previous last entry, I wrote it during my insanity times. I want to say sorry.

I don't think I still realize what's wrong with me. But I know I can do it: one step at a time.

I Did It Again

Grave mistake. It was a different version this time.

How am I suppose to get a normal life if my whole emotional aspect is b*tching me? Or is THIS my normal life? To get hurt? But I feel pain! Am I suppose to feel pain for the rest of my life?! Am I suppose to feed on pain, to nourish me, for me to grow battered? How can I go one step further if steps one to five are already messed up?

I need a break. Seriously. I wanted to fix things. I wish they can be fixed that easily.

I WANT TO HEAL EVERYTHING!
 
I can't... control my life anymore. It's hard.

I wish those two persons would end my life, my suffering. Either that or I wish they could help me fix this "mess". I want a "normal" life... I wanted to have one...



"I'm not normal and I never will be. I'm a lot of things... an agent, a villain, an orphan, and I'm running out of places to go."

~Elle Bishop; Sum Quod Sum, Part 2

Ang Marikit na Perlas...

Naglalakad ako sa dalampasigan isang hapon. Ang ganda ng paglubog ng araw. Kulay orange. Una, sa gilid lang ako naglalakad. Pero 'di kalaunan, pinasya kong lumangoy patungo sa ilalim ng dagat.

Maganda ang dagat. Maraming isda at korales. Ang gandang pagmasdan ng dagat. Ngunit may isang bagay na lalong nakatawag sa akin ng pansin: isang perlas.

Kay ganda ng perlas na iyon. Malaki siya at makinang. Anupa't pinasasaya niya ako. Habang tinitignan ko siya, parang nawala ang kirot sa puso po. Pinapangiti niya ako; pinapangit niya ang puso ko. Unti-unti akong lumapit sa kaniya at hinaplos siya.

Habang natutuwa ako sa perlas, nakaramdam ako ng masama. HIndi ko alam kung bakit, pero kinakabahan ako. Parang hindi ako makahinga. Tama, nasa ilalim ako ng dagat. Pero may iba pang dahilan sa kaba ko.

Lumayo ako ng bahagya sa perlas para makita ang kaniyang kabuuan. Pero nagulat ako sa aking nakita: isang napakalaking talaba. Isang talaba na nagmamay-ari sa perlas. Nanghinayang ako. Hindi ko kayang kunin ang perlas. Ang talaba na ang nagmamay-ari sa kaniya. Bigla nalang sinara ng talaba ang kaniyang higanteng bibig. Dahil doon, nagkaroon ng napakalakas na alon. Inanod ako. Hindi ako makahinga. Nalulunod ako. Mukhang hindi na ako makakalapit sa perlas na iyon kahit kailan. Naging madilim ang lahat ng nakikita ko.

...

Dinilat ko ang aking mga mata at ako'y napaubo. Isang halik. Isang halik ang gumising sa akin. Ngunit, sino siya? Pilit akong bumangon pero wala akong nakita. Lumupasay na lang ulit ako sa buhangin. Umiiyak.

Got It All Wrong

I am already in the prove/disprove part of that thing I was talking last time: If those 3 4 signs will be another doom for me. Turns out, they're not all related... Yet. But at least I'm assured there's nothing wrong with me.

On the lighter note, I'm going to wait for the latest episode of Heroes 3. They're getting more and more fantastic, you know. But I'm not going to reveal anything since it may turn out to be spoiler to others. :P

I'm patiently waiting for the episode. Then while download is in the process, I'm going to make some popcorn and chill my wine!

YATTA!

Dapat Ba Akong Matuwa?

I can see it coming.

I don't know what's wrong with me. I always do it wrong. I'm on the verge of yet another breakdown. I can see my doom.

Supposedly, Aquarius's element is air: meaning, I uphold freedom and I can do what I always want. Yes, I can always do what I want but I opted not to because I'm emotionally and socially weak. Water embodies me more, since I just let myself be formed, or rather, be a product of my environment.

I can see my doom. I don't know what to do. I can't do nothing but pretend I'm okay. I'm tired of waiting. I have to face it with all my strength.

I'm waiting for the second sign of my impending doom. The first already happened. T_T

Competitiveness...

I remembered when I was on my 1st year. I thought since I'm here on THIS university, I can't expect high grades anymore. But as I "transcended" into 2nd year, my fierceness got into me once again, and this is the fruit of my labor.

In fairness, as I "compute" my grades in MSExcel (up until 3rd Yr: 1st Sem), I was "crying" as my average is flashing right before my eyes!

Yosh, I have decided to reach at least the Magna Cum Laude standing! (I think I can't put myself up to the Summa Cum Laude rank. But who knows?)

Notes: Grades on Math123.1 and Math122 are theoretical and are subject to change.

The Naughty Adventures of Denji [with his family] at Trinoma and SMNE

The sequence:
1. Bought clothes at Trinoma. Been warned that cameras are not allowed.
2. Ate at Kenny Rogers.
3. Tribe Fashionistas went back to Landmark to buy more clothes. Tribe Whiners rested at Landmark Food Center.
4. Merged at Men's Apparel Section [and I bought a new polo and rubber shoes! Yatta!].
5. Went to SMNE. Team Parents dated. Team Children watched Igor.
6. Ate at SM Foodcourt. KFC!!!
7. Had some ice cream at Scoopery.
8. Played with the dog. Yeah.

The Fan Fiction That Was Never Meant To Be Written

I'm an avid fan of fiction, or any other works of literature for the matter. I'm trying to write some, but sadly, puro umpisa lang sila.

There's this particular idea that's been popping on my mind ever since I was in Second Year High School. It's been 5 years, but I haven't started on the story yet; just the characters. I wanted to post my ideas here, but no. I really can't do anything.

I guess I should really start about it, ne?

Do you know why I can't start that? It's because I'm bothered by their birth dates. Call me trivial or OC, but I strongly believe on those astrology things. And astrology does play as one of the central themes of my story so I really can't start since I'm idle learning the whole stuff of Chinese and Western astrology. T_T

To give you an idea of what my write-up is all about, I can only say it is a mixture of Sailormoon, Heroes/X-Men, and your regular teen-age drama flicks as major "ingredients".

*sigh* When can I start? I am to graduate college now... T_T

Last Heroes Wallpaper

All Complete

[link]

Greetings for Rosa

http://cassp6.multiply.com/video/item/11/Rosas_Birthday.wmv
Belated Happy Birthday, Rosa!
Just posted the link to spread our kalokohans and other stuff. Hehehe...

Side: Lumalim ang boses ko. Dati pag nagre-record ako, high-pitched ang pagkaka-register ng boses ko sa recorder. Feeling ko tuloy ngayon pa lang ako nagbibinata, e magna-19 na ako. T_T

Saengil Chukhahaeyo, Rosa-ssi! ^^ God bless!

Denji gets BJ(Buko Juice)-ed!

Warning: Post contains sexual undertones and not suitable for children under 72 years of age. Ask consent from an infant.

We are on our way home from Malolos City when my father decided to buy buko juice for all of us.

While I'm inserting the straw on my cup (with lid, of course), some of the juice accidentally spilled over my crotch area and when the straw was fully inserted, i "cried",

"NA-B.J. AKO!"

To my father's shock, he asked, "Anong BJ?" And my mother replied, "Buko Juice! Anak, gusto mong masampal?"

5 Things I Need To Do This Sembreak

Inspired by Kristin's latest entry (Cass, dalaga ka na, Kristin na tawag namin sa'yo! LOL)

1. Huwag munang mag-celebrate ng sembreak
~> secret ko na to kung bakit. may friend kasi ako (na apparently close na sakin) na di pa niya sembreak. so, hindi muna ako magse-sembreak! *basa mode*

2. Mag-ayos ng kuwarto
~> you wish! perpetually messy ala JB na ang room ko. anton dito, nering doon, sherbert sa other side... san ka pa? lol, seriously, mag-aayos ako.

3. Matulog ng maaga at least once
~> para umabot ako ng 6. (cass, maniwala ka sa kapangyarihan ng tulog! lol) saka healthy din angmatulog ng maaga. kaso, a-yo-ko. :P

4. Mag-DL ng latest eps ng Heroes 3
~> at i-burn, then i-lend kay kai. mwahaha!

5. Movie marathon!
~> jan-ssi, anong movies ba uli un? O_O

may dagdag pa pala!

6. Naruto, Bleach, Death Note, et al
~> kailangan ko ng maging updated! whaaaaa!!!

Sembreak? Not!: The Evaluation of 1st Sem AY 2008-2009

Name: LUMIDAO, Edward Jenned, Manicad
Year: III
Course: BS Mathematics
College/School: College of Science [Institute of Mathematics! woohoo!]


Subjects: (for Year 3.1 only)
1. Math 122 (Differential Equations and Applications)
Professor: Dr. Yoshifumi Takenouchi

Section Background: Heto yung isa sa mga classes where we sought petition for an additional section. Surprisingly, yung section pa na yun ang unang napuno. More surprisingly, hindi si Ma'am Sy ang naging teacher namin (in contrast dun sa indicated sa CRS) kung hindi si Sir Yoshi. Hinimatay ako sa red underwear niya...

Subject Rating: 5 stars. Ang galing niyang magturo. Plantsadong-plantsado sa lahat ng sections. Scripted baga.
My Performance: 4 stars. Uno-able, kaso ang dali kong tamarin. T_T

2. Physics 10 (Physics and Astronomy for Pedestrians)
Professor: Dr. Carlo Amadeo Alonzo

Section Background: Isang GE. Dapat Chemistry 1 ang kukunin ko kaso dahil blockbuster hit, Physics 10 ang kinuha ko. No regrets. Masaya naman. Mahilig mag-drawing si Sir Alonzo ng rabbits. Kaya Sir Rabbit ang tawag namin sa kanya. Kaso dahil maraming walang pasok, hindi namin na-discuss yung astronomy. Type kong magturo sila Sir Blanca at Ma'am Legara, dalawa sa mga guest lecturers nung last part.

Subject Rating: 4.5 stars. Medyo magulo yung ibang guest lecturers kaya hindi perfect pero since magaling naman si Sir Rabbit at cute ang bunny drawings niya...
My Performance: 5 stars. May 6 stars ba? 8D

3. Koreyano 10 (Elementaring Koreyano I)
Professor: Dr. Bong-Cheol Lee (Visiting Professor)

Section Background: Dapat Hapon 10 ang kukunin ko pero dahil blockbuster Foreign Language Elective siya, I chose my second option. Lee-seonsaengnim was a bit slow in teaching at first pero biglang bumilis. Marami naman akong natutunan, kaso pahirapan talaga sa vocabs.

Subject Rating: 5 stars. In its purest form. Pero in reality, 3 stars lang.
My Performance: 5 stars. Dapat nga 10 stars, eh. Kaso 5 yung maximum. Saka, ang daya. May magic. Hindi ko siya na-uno. T_T

4. Math 123.1 (Advanced Calculus I)
Professor: Dr. Marian Roque

Section Background: Si Ma'am Roque na yata ang pinaka-sosyal na prof na nakilala ko. Sosyal manamit, sosyal magturo, sosyal tumawa. Kaso pag bumanat, nako, tamaan na ang tatamaan. Lol. E paano naman kasi, nasa same coset sila ni Geometry "Queen" (Disclaimer: Ma'am Roque daw ang former Geometry Queen. Parehong may 11th finger ang mga naturang reyna. Kaso yung kay Ma'am Roque, totoong 11th finger na nasa kamay niya yun. Yung sa isa pang "reyna", nasa somewhere down there. :P)

Subject Rating: 5 stars. Marami kang matututunan sa kanya. Lalo na sa mga banat.
Performance Rating: 4.99 stars. Sayang! Konting-konti nalang!!! T_T

5. Math 110.2 (Abstract Algebra I)
Professor: Dr. Julius Basilla

Section Background: Isa uli sa mga section na newly-opened. Natuwa naman ako, kasi si Sir JB uli ang magiging prof ko. Kasi marami kang matututunan sa kanya, math-related man o hindi. Kaso the way he teaches, according to a friend, ay "parang kwarto (office/faculty room) niya". Pero magaling talaga siya. Swear.

Subject Rating: 3 stars. Teka, dagdagan mo ng isang moon. At isang malaking emoticon na 8D.
My Performance: Blackhole. 0 out of 5 stars. Ang failure ko. T_T

6. Math 150.1 (Mathematical Statistics I)
Professor: Dr. Adrian Roy Valdez (1st 2 parts)/Dr. Jose Ma. Escaner IV (Last part)

Section Background: Ang section na ginamitan ko ng hacking para makuha. :P Opposite ends of spectrum ang way of teaching nila sa subject na ito. Sir Valdez is more theoretical, while Sir Escaner is more on applications.

Subject Rating: 5 stars. Di ko lang talaga siyang kayang i-appreciate.
My Performance: 3 stars. Nag-effort naman ako, no. Kahit hindi ko lang siya ma-absorb at ma-digest.



Overall Semester Rating:  4 stars. The best sem pa rin ung kay goddess Ma'am Zolah.
My Overall Performance: 4.5 stars. I never did better on any other sems than this one.



Other Things/Miscellaneous: NO COMMENT! >o<
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Post: Sembreak ko na nga pero di pa ako magse-celebrate. May dadamayan pa ako. 8D

Frustrations and Loss of Inspiration... And Failures

I woke up early so that I can go to UP early to review. When I was already there, I started reviewing at the library. After a few more scans and reads, I rested and met my friends. Practically, we were "enjoying" (there were 2 birthday celebrants) the times until our professor came.

EVERYTHING IS A DISASTER! I only know 2 out of 5 items. At the end, I answered 2.5/5 items. Here are my failures:

1. linear independence of vectors <=> non-singular coordinate matrix
~>I'd done the <= part. For the => part, I was trying the contrapositive. Later did I realize that I am almost done. Sadly, I don't know what to do that time.
Points: 0.5 x 7

2. how many sol's does AX=0 have if AX=B has no sol'n?
~>My answer: the nullity of A. The answer: infinitely many. My professor said, "Mapapamura ka kapag nalaman mo yung sagot". And he was right. This is actually related to the => part of 1.
Points: 0

3. find P s.t. P'AP is diagonal
~>Easy. I almost forgot the answer. If not for the hint given by my professor earlier, I will have no answer for this item.
Points: 1 x 7

4. if A^m is 0, show I-A is non-singular
~>Very Easy. Just abuse the series expansion of 1/(1-x).
Points: 1 x 7

5. if A is an orthogonal basis, then the norm is preserved on the linear transformation
~>No comment.
Points: 0 x 7

Total: 50%. FAILING
Final Grade: 67%. => 2.75. Letse. You broke my streak. T_T

Actually, before and during the exam, I was waiting for a divine intervention, but nothing came. Good thing, at home, there was popcorn and soda. At least they made me happy.

I Have Committed The Second Greatest Mistake of My Life Again, Unconsciously

Now I'm really crying right now. I just logged in to express what I feel (as always).

The thing is, I mentioned before that for the nth time (n>7), I committed the Greatest Mistake of My Life (the Mistake of Confession) which cost me a lot of new-found friends. But that one has been resolved already.

But there was another incident where I committed the Second Greatest Mistake [2GM] for the second time unconsciously. (I WON'T TELL WHAT MISTAKE IS THIS BECAUSE UNLIKE THE GREATEST ONE, THIS ONE IS REALLY A BIG, BIG MISTAKE) The first time it happened, a person almost gave me a bruise on my face and the incident stirred up a controversy on my High School (if not for my "popularity"  that time, I'm sure to be doomed). I'm crying when I was thinking about things when I realized that I have committed it again. I just hope that no one from *censored* will go near me and punch/slap my face.

I'm crying right now. Because of this and because of the Linear Algebra exam. Oh well, I will sleep now. I'll review again tomorrow. I'm hoping everything will be okay. I'll just dry my tears...

Post: If you're trying to ask or guess what's that 2GM, don't do it on the comments box below. You have all means of communicating with me: e-mail, PM, IM, snail mail, mobile phone, land-line, telepathy, express delivery. Just not here. It's for my safety. Thank you.

I Went Against The Flow

Yesterday night (or yestereve[ning], whatever), I... I... NVM.

Should I continue this post?
~Yes. >> Then what should I do next?
~No. >> Then Alt+F4, you... lol

Of course it's yes.
Then what should I do next?

Here goes...

There was I again. Found myself on a situation at a wrong time. I should have lied because I easily can (I'm a master of lies) but I haven't. I told the truth. I was crying that time. I told myself, here I go again, heart over head, ruined another friendship. But what's wrong with what I feel? There's nothing wrong because that itself is wrong! ToT

Then I sent a message the following morning. I told myself that if no replies came, then it's really over. I know I shouldn't have sent that message in the because I thought it's all happening again: send a message, no reply. So at first I decided not to, because I said I knew what is to happen. But no. I gave it a shot, hoping. Fortunately, I did received a reply, and everything went well. That wasn't expected. Really. That did not happen in the history of history.

Wala lang, random lang, this is supposed to be a sad post. Well, it's no longer that way. Well, I have to study! Kyakyakya...

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To 잔씨: 감사합니다.

11th Heroes Wallpaper

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We now have 11, one more missing cast/character.

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Walang Tamang Pamagat Para Sa Nararamdaman Ko

Ayoko na. Ayoko nang ulitin ang kasalanang ginawa ko na ng paulit-ulit. Hindi na ako nadala.

Gusto kong sabihin kung ano ang nararamdaman ako. Pero, ayokong mawala siya sa akin. Gusto ko parin siyang maging kaibigan. Pero nakakahalata na yata siya sa nararamdaman ko para sa kaniya.

Hindi na ako magugulat kung iwasan niya ako isang araw. Hindi na ako magugulat kung mandiri at magalit din siya sa akin...

Basta ginawa ko na ang parte ko: pinigilan ko na ang sarili ko.

Para kong pinipigil ang pag-ikot ng mundo. Mahirap.

Arigato, Sensei!

Turns out, this day is good. 8D

I was so sleepy this morning. I slept at 5, woke up at 6. I (or, my parents) decided that I should take up the morning exam. I haven't reviewed, really. It was so stupid of me to drink coffee during midnight. I really feel sleepy. I thought this will be the end.

I slept at the bus. Yeah, and my talent resurfaced once again: I woke up exactly at the stop where I needed to go.

Forward to the exam time. It was sensei's birthday yesterday but I don't know how to greet him. I recognized later that our exam was our sample exam! Stupid! Argh!

At the middle of the exam, sensei suddenly approached me to give a book (that was a reward for... performing good. 8D) and took pictures of... me. 8D (well, he has a purpose for that; besides, he always brings that cam of his)

After I finished the exam, I submitted my answer sheet (ie, bluebook) to the proctor (sensei went to some place that time) and waited for my friend outside. My classmate was done and my prof went to the exam room again. So my friend and I went inside the room to ask him again. My friend asked for her book and I asked something about the thank-you letter.

I said to him at the end: Otanjobi omodetou.
And he replied: Arigato!

Kawaii!!!

Then other things came, like the result of my exam in Linear Algebra. I never expected to get a high grade. 8D

Basta, this day is so good... 8D

Must... Study!

Exam is tomorrow morning, and I haven't answered the sample exams! Well, I studied, and I have proven it that it's still not enough.

As you see, today is my father's birthday. Being a seaman, it's just a rare occasion for him to celebrate here. So here, I have to buy the cake and help my mother with the chores, e.g., cook pasta and prawn curry (or curry prawn, or Mariah Carey, or kare-kare, or whatever). I think I will study later at night... *sigh* I'm tired procrastinating!

Cum Laude Standing!

I really, really, can't believe it. I thought my M150.1 (Math Stat) will be a disaster. But lady luck smiled and as of when that grade was released, I already attained THAT standing! w00t!

*commercial: hindi ko intensyon ang magbuhat ng sarili kong bangko. Wala naman kasing nagmamahal sakin nagbabasa ng blog ko.*

But what I'm fearing now is my status in M110.2 (Linear Algebra). Given I got the lowest passing grade of 3, I'm still in the same status. But that's not my main concern. I fear of failing that subject. I got that same feeling last M63 (Calculus 1), M64 (Calculus 2) and M110.1 (Group Theory 1). But the feeling gets worse chronologically as time passes. I fear I might fail. I really have to study hard.

But I had the greatest distraction of all time. That's my main problem.

Awit ng Sawing Mang-iibig

Pasensya na. Di ko alam kung paano ko ito sasabihin ito sa iyo ng diretsahan. Kaya dito ko nalang idadaan...

May gusto ako sa iyo. Iyon ang na-realize ko.

Sa gabi, hindi ako makatulog. Kasi ikaw ang iniisip ko. Pero ibang tao ang iniisip mo. Gusto kong sabihin na nami-miss kita, pero iba ang nami-miss mo. Sa tuwing magkasama tayo, nakikita kitang sumasaya kaya sumasaya ako, kahit iba ang dahilan ng pagiging masayahin mo, hindi ako.

Hindi ako marunong pumili ng tamang salita, pero sa tingin ko, may pagtatangi ako sa iyo. Ngunit...

Ngunit ayokong ulitin ang pagkakamali ko na ilang beses ko nang nagawa. Hindi pa yata ako nadadala. Gusto kong sabihin sa iyo kung gaano kita kailangan, kung gaano na lang ang kagustuhan ko na pumunta ka sa tabi ko at manatili habambuhay.

Kailangan kita. Kailangan kita sa tabi ko. Masisiraan ako ng bait kapag hindi na kita muling makita. Hindi ko man lang nasabi sa'yo kung gaano kita...

O kung gaano mo ako napapasaya, napapangiti...

Hay, kung madali lang ang buhay... Kung malaya lang ako...

I Want You So Much

You just don't know how much I miss you; more as each day pass...

I want to break away from my own zone and be with you. I want you. I want to hold your warm hands and place them in my cheeks. Then I will smell the scent of your hands and I will close my eyes. I want my hands to run on your hair, hold you on your chin and kiss you.

I want you. I want to tell you how much you mean to me. I want to hold you and hug you. I want you to be near me; as near as possible. I don't want you to go away. I want to touch your everything. I want to kiss you. I want you to teach me what love really means.

But that dream just ended. I cried. I don't want you away from me. I wanted you. You vanished like grains of sand carried away by the wind. I want you. I want you...

Plurk: A New "Place" to Rant

I just found out that cool site some people are talking about. And what's great about it is I found it, as the title says, a new place to rant.

Which means, I'll be putting less rants and random things on Multiply and more on Plurk. I'll now be putting more "meaningful" entries here since everything is cross-posted with Blogspot and Livejournal (I'm tired of removing those check marks).

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to anonymous:
사랑해요~... <3

PS: I won't be blogging anymore on Friendster. It just sucks, it really does.

WHY STUDENTS FAIL

Got this one somewhere:

It's not the fault of the student if s/he fails, because the year ONLY has 365 days.

Typical academic year for a student:

- Sundays - 52, Sundays in a year, you know Sundays are for rest. Days left 313.

- Summer holidays - 50 where weather is very hot and difficult to study. Days left 263.

- 8 hours daily sleep - 130 days GONE. Days left 141.

- 1 hour for daily playing - (good for health) means 15 days. Days left 126.

- 2 hours daily for food & other delicacies means 30days. Days left 96.

- 1 hour for talking means 15 days. Days left 81.

- Exam days - per year at least 35 days. Days left 46.

- Quarterly, Half yearly and festival (holidays) - 40 days. Balance 6 days.

- For sickness - at least 3 days. Remaining days = 3.

- Movies and functions - at least 2 days. 1 day left.

- That 1 day is your birthday

How can you study on that day???

Balance = 0

How can a student pass????

Oo nga naman...

Plurk

http://www.plurk.com/user/dennejdrawde
out of boredom, I created an acct here. 8D

Nagmo-moment Na Naman Ako!

Not the MGF, dear.

T_T After one straight week of exams plus my dad's arrival from Europe, pagod na naman ako.

Physically? Yes, ngayon lang uli ako physically napagod. Matulog ka ba naman ng alas-2 ng madaling-araw kaka-review ng Linear Algebra dahil sa palpak na meeting sa Korean 10? Buti na lang at maganda yung presentation namin. Nagmukha akong baklang chickboy. ToT

Dapat gagawa ako ng matinong blog entry para dito pero iko-compress ko nalang sa yet-walang-kwentang blog entry na ito.



Friday: 3rd exam sa Math 150.1 (Math Stat). Badtrip, nakalimutan ko kung pano mag-conditional. Epekto ng sobrang abstract ka nang mag-isip.

Saturday: 3rd exam sa Math 122 (Differential Eqtns). Maliban kay sensei, pangit na lahat. Merong questions dun na related, eh. Question 1, subquestions a, b, c, d. Na-realize ko, mali ako sa c. So ulit sa c at d. Tapos na-realize ko uli na mali naman yung b. So ulit lahat. Sad.

Sunday: Wala naman akong Econ class so no exam! Dito dumating ang dad ko. ^_^ 7pm, nasa Trinoma na ako. Kumain muna sa Taco Bell. Nakalagay sa receipt ko, DENJIE. Walang E ung nickname ko. T_T Tapos dessert sa Dairy Queen. Nakalagay sa receipt ko, DEJIE. Again, walang E, tapos nakalimutan pa yung N. Then sakay ng MRT, nakakita ng cute korean na mukhang doll, diretso sa Taft. Then punta ng airport. Trying hard mag-review ng Analysis pero ang pangit ng ambiance. Tapos, 2 hours bago nakalabas ung dad ko upon arrival. Natulog ng 2.

Monday: Exam sa Physics 10 at sa Math 123.1 (Analysis). Yung physics, pamatay ung essays. Muntik ko nang makalimutan yung mga dapat na sagot. Buti na lang, maayos ang daloy ng exam sa Math 123.1. Maliban sa proving sa Uniform Convergence. Si Cauchy kasi. >o<

Tuesday: Exam sa Korean saka return ng results sa Math 122. Ang bobo ko, perfect na sana, may nakalimutan lang akong baguhin sa final answer ng 1.d. Pesteng 1.b kasi yan. Yung sa Korean, ayos naman. Unless magkaroon ng magic, uno na ako dun. lml

Wednesday: Finals ng Math 150.1. Kinabahan ako for nothing. Dapat yung panahon na nag-review ako for Math 150.1 ay ni-review ko nalang ng Linear Algebra. Perfect sa Finals, pero di na akong umaasa maka line of uno ako, dos na ang boundary ko. (Tama ba yun, line of uno?)

Thursday (Kanina): ANG PINAKANAKAKAINIS NA ARAW. Sobra. Medyo may pagkapeste yung praktis sa Korean (for presentation) pero it went well hanggang sa actual perf. Yun nga lang, hindi na ako nakapag-review ng Math 110.2 (Linear Algebra) dahil dun. Failure. Hingal na hingal ako pagdating ng room, then dumating na si sir. Wala akong masagot nung una. Kinakabahan ako. Pero nakasagot ako ng 3 out of 5. Enough para makapasa. Pero sayang ung 1.25/1.5 standing ko doon.



Tapos ang lungkot ko na naman. May pagka-attention seeker kasi ako, eh. Gusto ko yung mga taong gusto ko, pinapansin ako. Kaso hindi naman pwede yun, di ba, no matter how close/open yung tao sa iyo. So ayun, emotionally battered na naman ako.

Tapos isang tao lang uli ang magbabasa ng blog entry kong ito. Sad. Paano ako makakapagparinig niyan?

My [Possible] Schedule of Classes for the Next Semester

Note: This is not yet permanent and is subject to change...NOT! This is a do-or-die schedule!

Schedule
Time	Monday	Tuesday	Wednesday	Thursday	Friday	Saturday	Sunday
08:30 AM-10:00 AM		Math 162 THR		Math 162 THR
10:00 AM-11:30 AM		Math 171 THU		Math 171 THU
11:30 AM-01:00 PM		Math 197 THV		Math 197 THV
01:00 PM-02:30 PM			Koreyano 11 WFW		Koreyano 11 WFW
02:30 PM-04:00 PM		Math 123.2 THX		Math 123.2 THX
04:00 PM-05:30 PM		Math 150.2 THY	Math 110.3 WFY	Math 150.2 THY	Math 110.3 WFY

Remarks:
1. Still waiting for a good schedule of Math 199.1.
2. This means I'll be in overload status next semester.
3. That may mean I'll be in minimum-units status the semester after to give more time for research.

10th Heroes Wallpaper

to Katt: heto na ung hinihintay mong character! 8D
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Heroes 3x07

Start:	Oct 28, '08 05:00a
End:	Oct 28, '08 06:00a

Heroes
Season 3: Villains
Episode 7: Eris Quod Sum

Heroes 3x05

Start:	Oct 14, '08 05:00a
End:	Oct 14, '08 06:00a

Heroes
Season 3: Villains
Episode 5: Angels and Monsters

Heroes 3x06

Start:	Oct 21, '08 05:00a
End:	Oct 21, '08 06:00a

Heroes
Season 3: Villains
Episode 6: Dying of the Light

Quickpost na Parang Quickfire [less than 10 minute blog entry]

Wala na akong time mag-review! *panic mode*
Di ko na alam kung ano ire-review ko sa Physics 10... gusto ko ng computations, no!

Pupunta ako ng airport mamaya. May affair ako. 8D
First time kong pumunta ng airport mag-isa. Hahaha!

Remembered my trip to Bora... Cool...

Random lang: Ang ganda ng Heroes ngayon! Xet! Hahaha! Pati Survivor. Sayang lang wala na si Paloma. T.T Go Kenny! Haha!

I'm trying to keep my cool.

At tandaan na di ako marunong gumawa ng coherent paragraphs. 8D

GOTTA GO REVIEW PROCRASTINATE! 8D

Oh, Darn...

EXECUTIVE FAILURE! NO!!!
I'M SUCH A HUGE DISGRACE!!!

*rantsrantsrants*

I failed the "stop-Internet-for-a-week" test. T_T
Failure ako ngayon sa Math 110.2
Failure ako (matagal na) sa Math 150.1
Kailangang ipanghatak ang Math 122 and Math 123.1
Bwisit ang Physics 10. Too unpredictable. T_T
Korean 10? Secret.
Saka di ako in-love! T_T So, ano to, tawag ng laman? Hahahaha! No, I just need a hug... A hug from someone I long to hug... Tawa ka jan, walang tawag ng laman. Joke lang yun.

GUSTO KO NG CHOCOLATES!!!

Last Minutes of My "Life"

It was earlier this day that I declared "HIATUS".

But now I feel like I taking it back, but no! As my friend said, "Internet is [a] drug". It's kinda "sad", but I really have to control myself. It really is a "drug".

As you might know, it's not my emotional dependence that rises up in level but my masochistic tendencies as well. I hate being submissive, but I have a laid-back body. T_T

Yosh, this is a test, I think. If I did not open Tracy (my laptop, so you know) for at least until the next episode of Heroes comes out, then I have succeeded the test.

Yosh, THESIS MODE! [early thesis mode. =P]

I'm sad, really. But at least I'm trying to be happy. And I want to talk to ****** personally about "some things". Oh, and that includes *****, *****, and ****, too. And even ***.



P.S.: ang pagkakaintindi ko sa blog ng isa kong senpai na lumalabas ang pagka-emo pag in-love?! no, xeeeeet!!! di naman ako emo, di ba? T_T

9th Heroes Wallpaper

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